Life consumed

My life has become consumed with ridiculousness. I spend my days and weekends training and racing- and for what? I'm not getting any better, I'm not meeting new people, I'm not doing anything important with it. Why do I even do it? I have three relatively big events next year. February, June and November. I think that might be it. I need to work on being a better person. I need to work on the relationships I already if I ever want to have someone in my future. Some guys at work used to jokingly ask what was wrong with me that I was in my mid twenties and still single. Now I really do wonder. None of the men I've dated have fallen in love with me- but I also can't say that I ever loved any of them either. But why not? Why haven't I met someone that makes me want to skip a run or trade in endurance for more manageable distances. Why isn't there someone that makes me giddy? I thought there was, but over time I learned he wasn't. He had no interest in anything I did. At all.

I don't even know if I truly want that though. Every day I see people in relationships who aren't happy. Or they think they are because distance separates them and they don't know what is in store for them. People getting dragged places they have no desire to go because it's supposed to be a compromise. Since when does compromise mean being unhappy so much? I love that I have all my freedom, I just wish that there were someone to leave a note for. Someone to worry a little if I'm late getting back from a run.

the last few days...

The last few days have provided some good entertainment around here.  I made mini delish cinnamon rolls the other night. They lasted 24 hours. (there's four of us)

We hade turkey birthday cake at work...ingenious! The stuffing is donut holes, the legs are made from ice cream cones- and it was yummy! 

It's still below freezing though, as the inside my windshields can attest to....

booo. snow

I spent most of yesterday (after my run) sitting on the couch watching Ironman Arizona live online.  It was beautimous.  Chrissie Wellington set a new womans' record on an official Iroman course. By something like11 minutes. In. Cred. Ible.  That's really all one can say.  I'm so glad these Ironman races are streamed online and throughout the year. It really helps keep me motivated, especially on a crappy snowy day like today.  Even though I went to happy hour after work with some coworkers, I ventured back to the gym to put a couple miles on the treadmill. Just a few, but better than nothing. AND, I only had water and kept my eating to a minimum. It's quite possible that I've just found my year-round motivation.  I just have to make it a few weeks in between races, plan a long run or ride and then plant myself on the couch and get ready to shed some tears.

On the other hand, these crappy days at work make it easy to just want to curl up under green blankie and sleep.  Oh, green blankie- quite possibly one of the best things my mother has ever made for me. When my niece, Emily, was just a baby I used to take her little blankets and lay them on myself to make one big blanket and nap on the couch.  Being the awesome mom that she is, my mother made me a Bri-sized blankie in my favorite soft material. And I swear, that thing puts me to sleep like a car ride for an infant. Joram used to yell at me for trying to watch football with him while snuggled up to green blankie.  Inevitably, I would fall asleep. Everytime. Even now, when I can't sleep I curl up with only that blanket and most often I'm out within minutes. It even went to the last Ironman with me. And apparently, Emily fell asleep with it while we were sharing a hotel bed. Ali tells me I woke up pulled it off her and turned over and went back to sleep. I'm a bad Auntie!!!

Ooh, and big things are on the horizon. Stay tuned.

Chrissie Wellington is a PHENOM!!!

I'm watching Ironman Arizona online right now, while the snow falls here outside Seattle and I sit in my damp running clothes after putting in a cold 8 miles this morning.

Basically Chrissie Wellington is amazing. She's only about twenty minutes behind the men, with about a twenty minute lead on the next closest woman. Incredible. 

Half marathon

The Seattle half marathon is coming up in a week.... Definitely not ready for this. I got a pair of compression socks today- expensive but will hopefully be worth it. Hoping to get about ten miles in tomorrow morning. It's going to be a cold one, I think the high is only supposed to be 37! Brrrrrr!

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A few pics from my PA trip

She's fearless!

Dress and boots compliments of Auntie B

What a little poser in my hat!